He- no. Wait, it should be goodbye. Goodbye to 2008, and hellloooooo...! to 2009!

since this is and shall officially be the last post of the year, I guess it should go by 'tradition'.

Oh, you know what I mean. whatever.

Been 'resting and recovering' a lot for the past (almost) three weeks because of sinusitis infection, but now it's completely okay! Which means I can go out and swimmmmmmmmm whooooo!

And now it's like I'm frantically going out. Basketball, movies, you name it. It's like a last minute scramble to get together with classmates that will be splitting up two days later. The closer the new school year gets, the more paranoid I become. I find myself bombarding my mind with questions like:

-How's the new school year gonna be like?
-Will it be super hectic and stressful?
-Can I cope with the studies, or cope with my new class? (especially since the dumb teachers put SOURAV DEY and BERTON LIM together in the same class.)
-Will I be able to improve in my swimming?
-Can I get into finals for inter-school this year?
-Will I be able to discipline myself to train harder and push down my timing?
-Will I have time for everything this year? I already feel so squashed thinking of it.

Ah well. No use in making myself worried over things that have not come.

I shall now bask in the last 3 hours and 50 minutes of 2008.

I feel like I've not done much stuff this holidays because I was sick half of december. Now I feel so lazy, and wanting a longer holiday so I can do more things. Y'know. Hardcore holiday training. Where I'd go to the gym in the morning, then go and swim. Then swim again at night. Everyday. Gosh, that's what I did in the June holidays! What the hell happened?

Yuck, and SNAG's coming up, how am I gonna get my form up by then? I really wanna do well.
Bullshit.

And Year 3. Whoa. It sounds really scary already. So my 2009's gonna be like what, eat school swim train sleep eat school study sleep eat school swim train sleep.

meh well.

To dedicate all my, yikes. I can't believe I'm going into mushy stuff. Anyway.
To all those who made my year 2008 wonderful (:

Mum: yeah, whatever. I know you might never read this anyway. I really apologise for all the times I made you so, so, SO mad at me cause of my obsession my swimming. Perhaps you just wanted me to understand you, but I sadly never bothered to try. But now I see and I appreciate all you have done for me all these years. Sigh, I'm really not good at describing this sorta stuff. But you're the MOST awesome mum I could ever have, and ever will find anywhere else.

Dad: It's an even less chance that you'll see my blog, much less read this post. But whatever, I'm looking forward to your coming to Singapore next June! I believe the 6 months of 2009 will fly by fast, and then I can see you again! :D I miss everybody in Down Under, grandpa grandma, auntie Kate uncle Wayne, shannon nathan marni... I'll send loads of photos over!

Kimberley: YOU! Why do I have to write about you. You annoy the shitass out of me, you push whatever blame you got onto me, you get me to do all your dirty work, which also happens to include homework. But what can I say? You're my sister, and nothing can change that. No matter how late you keep me awake at night. See la! it's your fault now I have insomnia. But really, without you, I guess home would be a rather quiet place. thankyou for bringing out all the colour in my life, even though we decorate it by quarelling 24/7.

And to all my fantastic friends, you probably know who youuuuu are! I'm really really grateful to all those people who tolerated my everything, all my crapshits stuff. Yeah, I'm sorry if I don't show it to be very appreciative of your presence. I already said it, I don't do mushy stuff. And it's kinda hard to explain. But it's very simple to say: you be nice to me, I'll be nice to you. But even if you think you're horrible to me, I'll still find a way to be nice to you. Unless of course you find a good way to get under my skin.

So now, to sum up my 2008!

A lot of things that happened this year changed my perspective of how I see things. What was once right might now be wrong. What once was wrong may now be right. On the surface, everything might still seem the same. But underneath, if you bother to check, it might all be different. I have now learnt to greatly appreciate the things I have around me, the people I have around me. What I have done, the mistakes I have commited may have cost myself and my family and friends a lot, these things have better shown me how to go about in life. There are some things which you cannot learn from books alone, although they may have been a great help. I might say I've gone through a lot more this year than in other years. Also, I've done much more thinking this year, more during the second half. Truth be told, I was really confused about the way things came out. But now, I've more or less sorted out some thinking, and it feels really great to be 'freed' now hahaha. :D

There are times where I wonder why I didn't just drop dead from all the exhaustion, but then I realised I wasn't going through all these alone. (:

I just want to say something about this someone that has constantly been there for me. I greatly appreciate his concern for me. It might've been awkward to ask at first, but now I'm really glad that he did ask. The past year has made me feel so compressed inside, and I didn't have a place to let it go. Let's face it : no one likes a broken down recorder. But this person is more of a broken recorder than me. I may have never realised it, but he made me see it, he made me fight it straight in the face. I'm really glad he was always there for me, making little dumb jokes just to cheer me up. I've not seen him for awhile now cause, yeah I'll be a broken recorder now, I was sick for so long. I don't think he'll see this, but I wish him a great year ahead (: and this might sound immature to who I'll be saying this, but it doesn't matter, cause I seriously mean it: if you got any problems, I'll be more than glad to listen to you being a broken recorder (:

And this is for TAYKAILINHILDA.
HOI. I dedicated to you HERE. You ah, tsktsk. Okay, I wanna go sleep. BYEBYE.
(hehehe)

Right. I'm almost done.
2009's ticking in, second by second. 2008's gonna be over. I shall let go of all unhappy memories and try to start afresh next year, especially in my new class. What's past should be in the past and not raked up again.

All the best! Year twenty-oh-9!

Cheers.