This ULTIMATELY sucks.

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Okay. Not the best way to start a post but... whatever.

In the past hour, I've been sighing non-stop to myself.

Sigh.

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There, it just happened again.



Many times, I open up my browser and log onto blogger, open up a new post and...

... sit in front of a screen, mind totally blank like an idiot.

Most times, the most I ever got to was to type a few lines, then shut the entire screen out of exasperation.
Since my mind's already in a blank, what am I really trying to do? Make my fingers churn out words of their own?
Sigh.

Even after reading all those dumb ahlian-ahbeng type blogs until my eyes have bled themselves dry and z,x,c,s etc. have swam in and out of posts...

... Zippo. Nothing.
Sigh.

School's been a real drain lately.

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Even WITHOUT CCA.
Next week CCA'll resume, and, I get so worn out just thinking about it.

Oh, I remember I had this conversation with Esther yesterday.
Nothing much, just a short one cause we were both trying to complete as much homework as possible in school.
Okay, so this. I was sitting beside Esther, comparing our school diaries, in which we write all our homework, projects due and tests and all that school sheezx.
I flip through past pages, and see everything packed to the brim on certain weeks. I remember last term's 5th or 6th week or something, one that most of us termed as Hell Week.
Then, I flipped over to the 3rd week of this term, A.K.A. this week.

It was almost exactly the same.

I filp a few more pages down to see where our latest test/quiz will end.
It'll be 2 weeks down the road.

So, I commented to Esther, "Hey, we're packed 'till August."

She looked at me incredulously. And then I realised what I had just said.
Freaking packed 'till August.

And maybe more will come up soon. Sigh.

Anyway, what I really mean to say is that...

... yeah. I won't be posting as much as I used to already. No more everyday everyday happy happy wanna post then post type of thing.

Reason's because,

-I'm in desperate need of time.
No time to do ANYTHING at all. 'Cept homework, that is.

-I don't really feel like blogging at times.
Usually because, whatever in my head is in all of a mess and I'm so confused/perplexed by all of it that, ARGH DAMMIT I really can't give a damn anymore, so what's the use of trying to put it in words?

I'm not in one of my most perfect moods right now. If you didn't see it until here then, well go kick yourself in the arse.

I might blog if the fancy takes hold of me, but for now, don't expect too much.

And also, I need time to sort out stuffs.
Stuffs that have been put on hold for far too long.
Stuffs that require immediate action.
And, stuffs that are really hogging up my head right now.

Stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid. I seem to have grown a sudden taste for the word stupid.
Stupid, stupid. Use it to describe everything you don't like, hahahah.


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D'you know that feeling?
Y'know. The feeling that...
... you were once THIS close to THAT some person.
And now you can even walk past THAT some person without the two of you avoiding eyes.

Stupid, stupid.
I don't like it. Especially when.
Stupid. Totally oblivious.
Either that, or on purpose.

I don't want to care already lah! Take up too much of my time.
People don't want to think okay. People wants to sleep.
People don't know why she refers to herself as 'People'.
but People don't care already lah! People already said before.
People don't need to care about things that don't want People to care about.

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One of the first signs of insanity is to talk about yourself in the third person point of view.

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Blog will be on temporary hiatus.






*P. S. If you see me going WON-WON nowadays.... well then. I just watched Harry Potter. (: